Have Faith, There Is A Reason For Everything

Have Faith, there is a Reason for EverythingHe was like his name, Doren, a Gift…
(If A exerts a force on B, then B exerts an equal opposite force on A - Newton's Law.)

I sat crouched in a corner,
Tormented by shame, worry and fear.
Amidst my rough sea of emotions,
I felt a gentle hand awakening my senses
I looked up to see your figure,
And felt magic in the atmosphere.
That moment still so vivid in my mind,
Never lets me forget you who came at the right time…

A simple teen at the age of 15, I always strived to be the cream of the crop. I dared myself to do everything there was to as I told myself, “You live life only once. Make the most of it.” To me, success was my duty, my responsibility. But at one point, I failed. Nobody expected it and neither did I. Being the best I was, failure was something I just couldn’t accept.

Then came this man whom I fondly called ‘Uncle Doren’. I had met him a few times but never once did I expect him to mean so much to me and take me out of the box which even my parents couldn’t pull me out from. He helped me to understand that failure was part of life. It was difficult for a strong headed person like me to accept such advices. Nevertheless he never gave up. He once told me, “Failure is like a road hump. It only slows you down. Don’t stay on the humps for too long. Get moving.”

My reasons seemed so meaningless for you to cradle,
Your advices were too meaningful for me to handle…

I had become a very sensitive and weak person. I could no longer laugh and joke with friends with the same joy and confidence. Anything and everything hurt me. For this he would say, “Happiness is your choice. Don’t let others mess with it. I feel great because I choose to feel great and you should too.” He patiently helped to build my strength even though I would purposely be stubborn at times.

In the beginning, I took advice from him as any youth would from an adult. But as time went on, I realized that Uncle Doren was more than that.

You cared for me like a father,
I wonder if you ever thought me as daughter.
My happiness gave you bliss,
By crying I was taking a risk.
Each time you gave me a praise,
My heart soared up as though given a raise.
Each time you pointed out my mistake,
Resolutions were made to change for your sake.

No words could describe the amount of love and awe I had for him. He was the only other soul apart from my parents to whom I told everything.

Then one day, as quick as he came, he appeared to have left my life.

I was left in shock and disappointment. My parents knew that I was deeply hurt but each time they brought up the issue, I would put up a brave front and lie, “God sent him to help me become a stronger person. He did his duty, he left. He didn’t mean much to me anyway.” But I would ask God “Why did this happen?”

He was not just my uncle; he was my mentor, my inspiration, my guide.

I still can’t decide which was worse, failing an exam or losing Uncle Doren whom I loved with all my heart. I talk to him once in a while but the bond that existed between us is no longer there. No…I cannot describe a bond as something physical, it is from heart to heart, soul to soul. God has never spoken to me but I still have faith in Him..

Before I knew it you were gone,
I wish to say no more as you have left me forlorn.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I’m sure most of us would have experienced pain and pleasure in our lives. Anything and everything comes in pairs. Positive and negative, black and white, real and fake, big and small. It’s just how we look at it. Between two pleasures there is a pain. Don’t look at it as between two pains there is a pleasure. Everything happens for a reason. Only God knows why and when it must happen to whom. Have full faith in Him and surrender everything at His feet.